A Gift from The Father
Any minute sliver of success that I’ve had has only been because of our Father in Heaven. I would not be alive to testify, if it weren’t for His longsuffering Mercy, Grace and Love. He has allowed some incredible opportunities for me to display His Grace and His Gifts through art.
I’ve worked as an artist (in one capacity or another), for nearly 30 years. I have some schooling, but mostly self taught. My appreciation for mural art began in childhood, but in the early 2000’s I was given a chance to paint scenic backgrounds for a theatre. Without any formal training and experience, I discovered that I had an undeveloped talent. Little did I know at that time, it was a gift from God.
Since I was Born Again, I’ve made some big spiritual mistakes, (yes, Christians make mistakes), but I’ve also made some epic artistic mistakes. By this, I don’t mean taking on more that I can chew (which I’ve done a few times). By this, I mean taking on jobs and thus behaving in ways that didn’t reflect my identity as a Christian; and in fact, reflected a very poorly on my Faith. I thought that I could involve myself with anything of the world because I was “covered by the Blood”. I even had the arrogance and naivety to believe that I could “shine my light” into these darker places and affect some kind of spiritual change.
These regretful errors are how God taught me the meaning of 2 Corinthians 6:14:
“Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? and what communion hath light with darkness?” 2 Corinthians 6:14.
The truth is, I simply wasn’t mature enough in the Faith, I was a baby believer, still drinking milk. Nor was I diligent enough to study God’s Word to know that I had absolutely NO BUSINESS doing business with certain businesses. My poor choices reflected my spiritual laziness.
“Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.” 2 Timothy 2:15.
Moreover, I took on certain jobs to impress those around me; hoping they would like me and think I was cool. So stupid. It was a cringeworthy, foolish effort to mend my hurt feelings and fractured ego.
In other words, I cared more about the opinion of man than the opinion of God…big ooops.
Working for the film industry was my epic regrettable career mistake.
I have repented. He has forgiven. However, unlike those secret sins done in private, this regret is public; preserved and presented for all the world to see and judge. Many would say I’m making a big deal out of nothing, but when I consider the infinite holiness of our Lord, I shrink in regret and contrition.
The Father gave me three choices when faced with His stern chastening:
- Ignore the iniquity of this and continue in the false belief that liberty in Christ allows for sin such as this.
- Hide my head in the sand, pretend it didn’t happen, or run away from it like a coward.
- Accept this as a hard knock lesson to share to others as warning, and move forward in obedience and victory.
I chose #3.
Praise Yah for His Mercy!!
And so it is.
Like any profession or skill, the more one practices, the better one gets; that’s the goal at least. And although we are saved by Grace alone, our walk with the Father is similar. The more we practice, the better it gets! And like anything, some of us have an easier time and some of us…not so much. We all have unique struggles and convictions. Some of us have more baggage and some of us have more blessings.
“…for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.” Matthew 5:45
However, unlike other activities, tribulations and attacks from the enemy tend to come on more and stronger when we are making progress in our walk with Christ.
There’s good news though: When we surrender our lives to Jesus Christ, we have something that this world cannot give us; an advocate who loves us more than we can imagine. He will help us turn away from behaviors and attitudes that can destroy our lives and far worse; threaten our souls. When (not if) we fall, we have Him to help lift us back up and set us straight!
I believe that one reason our Father in Heaven allows us to fall or make epic mistakes, is so our pride is checked. Thanks be to God Almighty for this! There’s no place for high horses or ego pedestals in His Kingdom.
“The fear of the LORD is to hate evil: pride, and arrogancy, and the evil way, and the froward mouth, do I hate.” Proverbs 8:13.
Despite the many times I’ve fallen, the Eternal Father in Heaven, with His infinite Grace and Mercy, has picked me up. He loves, but He also chastens me. Why?
Because He’s a good Father.
His chastening has allowed me the opportunity to confess, repent and trust Him in obedience and reverence to His Word.
His burden is light, but sin is heavy.
I hope this serves as encouragement to you! Let Him pick you up when you fall. Turn your back on sin. If it seems too difficult or impossible, ask the Father for help. If He can take a hopeless, godless, pagan, wretched, undeserving, slave to sin, rebellious punk like me, and transform them into a FREE, God fearing, Bible believing, righteousness-seeking follower of Jesus Christ; anyone can have hope. 🙂
In Christ there is ALWAYS HOPE!
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